Tuesday, February 24, 2009

False Economy

I live in my body. What is my proximity to a subject? That's all there is. Proximity is a decision. I can take a stance distant to lengthen the perception or realize there is no proximity. There isn't even proximity to a fiction. There is the duration of the body and it has momentum established by a wave of genes and circumstances.

Why would I build a structure with no door? I suppose to look at it and remain strange? How would I experience my structure other than from the inside?

Tonight I felt like the priest in the Exorcist - the young one who lost his faith. I need something in art to to prove its existence. I don't see what good it does for anyone except the practitioner. I don't think its purpose is to be enjoyed or even seen. Why so glum...What good does it do anyone to talk about art and concepts and principles? Is it staving off a reckoning? Art is a nice thing, like a candy bar, but it denies death.

And there's such an abundance of love at the same time. Enough to last endless lifetimes.

4 comments:

wondering jube said...

i try to sense this love you speak of - i think of complementarity and synmbiosis and freefall towards the centre of gravity, but dont know if any all or none of these things approximate the love you sense in such abundance. Is love maybe abundance itself? but there is pain in abundance itself, there is overload and pollution and noise in abundance you cannot mean

thank you for leaving these small clearings to find

bandu

wondering jube said...

But then I think that you dont *know* what 'love' *means* in general. You are reminding us of the abundance of its instances, unmistakable and not in need of definition

ok i know this too

wansu

wondering jube said...

I still get to watch a little from afar - I wont tell you how or you'll plug the leak. I cant make contact because I wont have anything to talk about but my trials clearing a trail - though I could talk about a dozen things (including your rightness where you think I might disagree - the disagreements are all formal not substantial
nutness (as viewed underwater)

wondering jube said...

period after 'substantial'.
isctlys (viewed underwater)